Waves of Emotions
I am used to not feeling or having a lot of emotions. I never labeled my days as "good day" or "bad day". Every day was always the same. The same emotions, same routines, same everything. My first half of 24 was rough. Hella rough. I lost someone I dearly love and miss. I have never felt so low in my life before. I really liked someone. I felt that I was incapable. I never felt so alone in my life. I let someone bring me down. I experienced panic attacks for the first time in my life. I cried 20 years worth of tears. I was a mess. I never had so much emotions gushing at me, and I honestly did not know how to deal with all of them. I went to therapies for the first time. I opened up to my closest friends about my situation. I am still not used to all these emotions. I really want to go back to how I was, just having that "monotone" emotion. I don't know why I'm feeling this way. I feel like I am not wanted/good enough and feel super down. Get o